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This is what I remember:
Sunday night I was pulling an allnighter with Becca to finnish my Exit paper. Around 2 my computer got overwhelmed and shut down on me. I saved my paper but it was on Word. So I flipped a shit and got sick a few times probably just from frustration/stress. I got really dizzy and my mom told me to just stay home.
I guess I did and woke up at 9 or 10 Monday morning. Someone came to fix my computer at 1 and I went to see my doctor at 2. He didn't diagnose anything but I got pills for nausea and dizzyness and (completely unrealated) I was also diagnosed with Scoliosis. So that's more specialists and more appointments. So I can't miss anymore school for sickness because I might need those days for appointments.
That evening I hardly remember anything. I remember finnishing my exit when I got home and putting my stuff in my bag for school. I finnished Great Gatsby and went over my roots. Then I got really drowsy from one of the pills which it did say on the side but this was an overwhelming sleepy. so I got in my bed and fell asleep. The part that I harly remember is from then til I woke up.
My mom knocked on my door and I answered so she started talking about exams and uhhh this part is fuzzy.. but i ended up on the floor somehow and anyway, she asked me why I was on the floor and I said that I didn't know? I was really hot though and she kept asking to take me to the hospital but I kept saying no so she walked me to her bed so she could keep an eye on me or something. And kept asking me how I felt during all these times that I didn't remember and I still didn't. anddddd I guess I fell asleep until I half woke up and my parents were around me and my mom was talking about letting me stay home but it was 'suspicious that this happened around exam time'. So I got really pissed off and got up and the next thing I know I hit the floor then I woke up in her bed again at 11.. today.
Soooooooooooooo there goes 2 days of school, and I've missed so much no doubt. I'm definitely coming tomarrow though.
But from reading Becca's entry about how it's PSATs tomarrow when I thought it would be Algebra, that makes me feel better hah.
It's raining really hard and I don't know what any of my homework's been.
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| HOW IN THE GODDANG WORLD DO YOU NOT PROCRASTINATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????
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Hi, my name is Christy and I think I'm waking up my mischevious knees here.
This was last night but this is this morning. I don't know why I'm updating this early at 10:30.
I had a really good night. I went out to eat at the Tryon House Restaurant with my parents. I love that place a lot. It's so cozy and everyone there you know because they've watched you grow up. Some of the best conversations have happened there and memories and memories of what was on your mind at some point in the past when you were there.
I went out for coffee at about 9 with Lauren at the Caribou in Colony Place. THE PEOPLE WHO WORK THERE ARE SO CUTE. We wanted to ask them out. We talked about a lot of things and mostly dents (we is Lauren and me). Even though I had a large mint condition, I fell asleep really hard at like 12.
( I don't do this but then I was like hey I do what I want and I guess I wanted to do this? )- Mood:good
- Music:"Sleep" Imogen Heap
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| I haven't said anything in a while! I'm still trying to think of a name! You know, when I decide, it will probably be the stupidest thing in ever. we. I have things to show you!
It's getting cooler. But a bit warmer at the same time. know? okay good.
today was tons of feet sweaters day. feet sweaters school feet sweaters house (this is feet sweaters house).
things to show you:
this is sunday! I cut on my hair! I dyed it dark brown all over but I have none pictures of that yet at all really but soon.
those are my walking feet sweaters and cookies that are delish.
I'm getting to a point where I'm leaving my 97 comfort blankets like i told you i would and i'm not even cold. HAHA CHRISTY IS SO FUNNY. .. ..... .
- no more hiding behind straighteners and cliche overdone hairs, heavy make ups, and orderly clothings.
- now i just do what i want.
- i'm talking to more people and getting in touch again with ones i miss and getting closer to ones i've met.
one wall at a time, but i'm moving along rather quickly unexpectedly, there's only one thing i can't move on from.
other things for you:
( ring & i was gonna wait but here's pictures from festival in the park ) - Mood:loving this song + now
- Music:"speeding cars" imogen heap
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Things are fantastic right now, and I'm excited for this weekend.
- Dinner friday - Beasting pizza at Wolfman's!
- Mom all to myself Saturday. We're going to drive far away to anywhere we want. Anywhere to antique shops. We'll probably also hit the mall sometime this weekend for our favourite cherry chocolate coffee.
- Maybe the greatest Romance movies Saturday night?
Dad and I might write a novel together. It was just an idea he had after reading my short story. THAT I GOT AN 84 (C) ON. Thanks Brockingballs, I would have thought at least a B. It ain't nothing special. It's just.. when my dad compliments me, it's really rare and so, this usually means it's good, and he was really proud of this piece. Well, it's whatever.
I HATE ALGEBRA 2. It's so boring and Mr. Strauch can't teach very well. AND I have the most retarded group of freshmen in my class. There's this girl who sits behind me; she's new and she's from Russia. She has a really thick accent (which I find really interesting and beautiful) and her english is actually pretty good but broken up sometimes. She's really nice, and all these stupid kids can do is make fun of her and mimic her. Seriously, I'm sick of these stupid kids and this stupid school and just stupid people who are so close-minded and disrespectful. Like hell I always wonder what it was like when my dad first came here. I would hate that so much.
Some art from yours truly is going to be on the Providence High School string orchestra shirts. I'd show you, but our officers have my original and only copy. I can, however tell you that it's based off of this profile:
it's a line drawing of similar style to the entry i submitted for the MCR shirt like 97 years ago:
(ha ha)
It's got line detail inside including the different clefs connected near the neck.
I'm bad at explaining this.
I think that's pretty much all I have to say for this entry.
Actually, I'm thinking about these two things a lot lately:
- changing my hair (not length, but layers, colours maybe).
- septum.
I spend way too much time in my comfort zone.
You do too, I bet. Let's get out of here, I'm so bored of playing it safe.
I think, I think, I think.. there's so much more. Even if it's not a hit, fuck up and learn. There could be something out there that you're going to love, but you're too scared to try it.
Oh me too, but I'm working on breaking out of it all. Join me?
Experiment, experience. You know, life.
Now, that's all.
PS - I should have just said the bold things and left it at that.- Mood:great
- Music:"Ben Franklin's Kite" Something Corporate
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That's from the birthday party for Cam who turned one, but that's not Cam, that's Connor.
I love how recently kids like especially the younger ones that I share elective classes with will catch up with me in the hall and come up and walk and talk like they've known me forever. And they're always telling me story after story after story and asking me questions about absolutely everything. This never used to happen, I guess I'm losing my scaryness. I guess I seem more approachable probably it's because I smile a lot since I've completely lost my ridiculous teenage angst in my earlier teen years.
Like I don't understand why I wasted my time being and making myself miserable for the longest time for the longest years when there is clearly so much other beauty to get off your ass and see and experience. Like not caring about what anyone else does or likes or thinks and you just focus on everything in that perfect nowhere of yours.
I don't know, I just, God, I love this most currently like it makes me forget preferably forgettable things and I just love it.
I don't have much to else say recently except that. This sounds all rushed and scattered because I didn't think out my thoughts well because I'm going out tonight for coffee so I'm getting ready and I'm excited!- Mood:like great
- Music:A Postcard to Henry Purcell
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| How dare you.
How much do you think a long distance conversation is gonna cost if I answered my phone 2 1/2 hours ago and hung up just now? Shit.
And not to mention the other cost of the conversation.
I don't want any of it. I want to belive but no. I had forgotten. The laughs, the fun, the happiness, the everything. I hate remembering. I don't want any of it. But this one part of me, oh God. I don't want this.
( the city ) - Mood:vulnerable
- Music:phone
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| - Laurens hairs tonight
- Bus to downtown tomarrow for a day in the city
- Kitty, & some old friends tomarrow night
ps. Sean's 17 tomarrowww
pps. Christina Aguilera's new cd is the greatest! Jazzy & bluesy with some hip hop and dirty talk. It's def worth checking out.
My hairs are black and brown. you have to be in good light to really notice.
( But if you've forgotten how i looked/never seen me with dark hair, ) - Mood:awesome
- Music:"Mercy on Me" Christina Aguilera
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| I'm "not supposed to be awake right now"?
Today was good. I really just spent it with my dad; working on my car, driving around, getting ice cream, making a run to the recycling center, then did some donating to Goodwill. However, while I was poking around there for some unknown reason, I ran across this camera and got it for about $2 and later bought some $.99 film with 12 exposures to test. I'm really hoping it will work because it's a nifty little thing, 4 lenses and filters for 4 photos on 1 4x6 print. Supposedly.
I also ran into my next camera while I was buying my film. $300 Nikon (Coolpix) 5.1 MP with a 10x Optical. Digital of course. I have to be good in school this quarter (well, year, as far as my like. life is concerned.) and then I can have it. I'm pretty ready to work for it.
I'm dying my hairs tomarrow.
And Laurens too, hopefully! Girl if you read this, remember to get 2 boxes this time, haha.
Oh yeah, so like after months of no communication, I got some random retarded myspace comment from Casey and I wanted to say something only I'm making damn sure to stay nice for the moment so maybe I'll get my guitar back. I seriously don't care about being 12 years old right now, all I want is that damned guitar.
PS. Oh yeah, I don't have to go to that party anyway because it's been canceled.
PPS. ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS ARE HOME. - Mood:okay
- Music:"Gatekeeper" ahhh my Jason
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